I must be crazy to endure jet lag when everyone else repaid their sleep debts.
When dreams feel so real, they reveal the inner soul, that's when sleeping becomes scary.
Sometimes we feel the need to alleviate the pain we feel but we just stay at the same spot, that comfort zone that seemingly brings us pain at the same time.
Maybe we do set deadlines to walk away or to stay but why do we have to?
For the love of hope.
Very much thankful it's Friday, the last work day of the week. But I don't really know if I would prefer keeping myself occupied with work which is precisely why I decided not to rest a day after my return from Europe.
I'm not quite close to depression, there's no need to worry.
I'm not excited at the thought of me, just me, with my work desk just right in front of the 2 bosses, the new one soon to be in.
This is quite a thrashy post but I just need to update this space of mine a lil.
I see so much melancholy, devastation and desperation for a gasp of hope everywhere. I read everyday. Sometimes we read to know that we are not alone. We do reposts, retweets whatnot.
Suddenly it strikes me, why should I join in the abyss? Isn't it silly seeing everyone jumping onto the wagon and not doing anything to liven up the dull sky? That's when it knocks sense in it.
All the feelings I used to have, still have, have, are still the same.
Under Earth: Fear is a choice, said Will Smith.
This kept rounding in my head.
Indeed, pain is not by choice but fear is by choice. Why don't you try, just close your eyes, take in a deep breath, tell yourself just stop the monsters from running in your head, open your eyes and smile to yourself. You gonna feel way better.
As for Christians like me, I do as mentioned above but I pray all the time. I know I'm not alone. Everything has its time. God has His reasons for all that happens whether you like it or not.
When it comes to love matters, I'm very thankful for my friends who are here for me, unfailingly. I don't think I can come thus far without them, really. Notice I can't thank 'lover' because love matters = lovers.
So I sign off here, leaving me with 5 hours of sleep till work.
Tata
1:54 AM
i dream of you.
♥