It's pretty late and I've been thinking of hitting the sack since 11ish earlier on. Still, I'm up and just a quick post
Will do a post on Sandy's 19th birthday celebration when I've more time on hand
I have a lot on my mind all the time but lately it's all about F.R.I.E.N.D.S
Sandy mass texted us all to thank us. One statement she mentioned was: 'Sometimes I wonder why ppl can't find true friends in poly which I beg to differ' This was prolly spoken by many, I've heard of the first and I was one of them in year one
Being a lazy and frivolous girl, I hardly did my homework except those instructed by discipline masters or mistresses. I was prolly the famous girl Miss Kaur would order to have me seated outside the classroom for not doing my homework. Utter disgrace I felt I was but thinking back now it seems funny hahaha. Of course, she had nothing against me, we love each other and she'll always be one of my favourites
Took me more than half a year to settle down in poly, hated school, hated everything about poly. Lazy and running off to meet people, I always missed project meetings. My classmates indefinitely thought I had no interest in my studies at all, I won't blame em. Grades looking up over the years as I pulled my socks. They saw my determination, the more hardworking me
Finally, now in my third year, I'm happy, school is a place to be.
Wonder if it's a problem, my impeccable disorder to be willing to commit or open up to people after a substantial amount of time together. I prolly lagged behind time but if I was as easy-going, I wouldn't be me.
Every single second of your life makes up who you are right now. I learnt from my failures, I learn to defend myself. No longer imbecile as before, aloof whatever, I'm just defending myself.
I don't believe people can get foster a unbelievable relationship within a short span of time. I'm traditional
I gained a friend whom I weigh the most important person to me in TP. Yet I lost her, never expected this day would come, really it did not cross my mind. I wonder how to face her if we ever cross roads once again. We did not end things on a bad note, maybe I said something I shouldn't have but as a true friend, I will choose to do the same if time rewinded
People come and go. I feel weary at the thought of the millions of same processes of getting to know a stranger
The vicious cycle goes on: stranger -> acquaintance -> friend -> good friends -> close friend -> best friend -> foe ->friend -> acquaintances...
Definitely, we all have our unique life stories
Friends make a huge part of me. As the bond grows stronger, it's no longer a friendship love, I find myself loving a person as a person wholeheartedly
That's when anyone leaves, I crumble
Hate to say that but I guess there is a reason why God shaped my heart this way
Nightie