It's currently 2.26 A.m. My head is gonna explode soon. Having a weird headache since evening time.
Didn't wanna turn the previous post into an unhappy one because it's meant for Mr V's joyous occassion.
So, a separate one.
I've been in the doldrums since the past few days.
Very low spirited and I'm feeling as dull and cold like the sky right now.
I kinda have no control over my tears.
As I've mentioned, Sis fainted few days ago and got admitted into the hospital for two days.
I was very worried for her.
Sorry, Vel that I couldn't join y'all for the chalet as I've really got no mood and wanted to visit my Sis. Glad you guys enjoyed yourselves.
Dad's foot got ran over by a car on Wednesday.
He's still complaining of pain.
You both are really worrying. Sigh.
During the chalet, my heart was very heavy. It got harder to bear as the night went by.
After my two seniors and I got back to the chalet, they were playing card game.
After some have slept, two seniors and I were left awake in the room.
My two seniors knew about my heavy heart.
My dear senior placed her arm over my neck in such that my face was facing down.
Knowing nobody could see, I started weeping.
She stayed by me, comforting me and wiping my tears.
Max came in but wasn't aware.
My other dear senior was also beside, comforting me.
Felt so comforting to cry in someone's arms.
I know for sure there are two ppl who I can run into their embrace and cry all I want.
Sm and Wy.
There were also two ppl with us intitally. Before they slept, they tried ways to cheer me up; to cajole me into laughing. One of them allowed me to "poke all my unhappiness out" (On his arm); he also allowed me to tug at his leg hair.
Thank you to the ppl whom cared. I really appreciate it.
I believe dear senior was the first person I've ever let in into my darkest secrets, stories that night.
Someone who genuinely understands and feel for me.
I'm sorry, I know what I did let you down and caused you to worry.
I feel embarrassed for the first impression I have portrayed myself before Jonan; Jy; M; Mh; D.
I'm sorry for my behavior.
Nevertheless, I wanna thank the ppl who took care of me.
Although Jj was drunk, he ensured that the mess was cleared and everything was in place before finally agreeing to hit the sack. Actually, I think it was only when he was tipsy that I saw the real side of him.
I would prefer him drunk in that sense then! Hahahha.
I feel better after talking to Keef and Wei Zhong. Thanks. :)
I promised Joanna I won't be late for church service tomorrow so I'm gonna turn in now!