All right.
Do you know whatever mistakes you commit; whatever consequences you've to bear, we bear it with you?
Whatever mistake that you've commited, I kept mum about it because I've to be understanding because of that consequence you're facing now.
By doing so, I just realised this morning that I'm accepting your mistakes by closing almost both eyes to how you're behaving now. Just because you're my Sis.
I was shocked; amazed when I heard from Mom why that incident had to be kept from me. Simply because my judgement of you mattered most to you. She added on, it's because I'm very important to you.
Because of that, I cried. Speechless because I didn't know this sister meant so much to you.
As a result, I felt a stronger tug to protect you. I didn't want you to get hurt further.
Do you know you're one of my biggest, straining worry?
I even worry about you when I'm revising. And it's hell-lot distracting. I guess you won't even dream it's partially because of you.
Just because I didn't voice out, doesn't mean that I'm accepting whatever crap you're doing now.
I wanna speak to you, you're either out or sleeping.
Please don't make me give up on you. You know I'm capable of ignoring you. You know that. Just recollect a few years ago.
Yeah, yeah. It's true that I'm soft-hearted. But don't forget, I'm good at feigning indifference or be aloof, actually when it matters extremely much to me.
You life is topsy-turvy; in a dreadful mess!
Can you please wake up?
And you three. I hate it when I've already found out the truth, and you ppl continue deceiving me like I'm a dumb ass.
I made a pavement for you guys to leave the stage.
You guys refused to budge and chose to continue with your act.
Damn it. Get down and stop the pretendence. I'm willing to not pursue those matters. Just stop it. I already know the truth.
Idiotidiotidiot.
And as a guy, you're supposed to be in control of your emotions. At your age, you've to be more matured and not be so soft. You've got to learn to be strong. By your last message yesterday night, you've already shown it. That's one example.
I'm fine with everything about you. But not the soft part. I don't know how to bring it across to you. But please learn to cope with problems.
Please, I don't wish to play the guy role.
Just because I keep mum about all these, doesn't mean I'm ignorant.
12:22 PM
i dream of you.
♥