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All right, it's past bedtime but there's something I need to get off my chest.
I think you two shouldn't listen blindly. It's a fact that I ceased talking about that incident after that few periods of lessons.
You two are the ones yeking and yeking on and on about it, causing the commotion. I didn't mention anything about it totally.
The truth won't be out and it's just a suspicion. To me, you girls made it very obvious by now. But let's not point fingers directly just yet.
In my opinion.
If you two were really the culprits, and by your behavior today, don't you think you both went overboard?
I intended to let the matter rest for I know you both will carry things even further.
But friends felt indignant for me and led me to the teachers.
I'm repeating this for the last time. The monetary issue isn't the main concern. It's about the action and the culprits have to know they can't always have things in their way.
And if you two think taking advantage of me, having the impression I'm not alert, for this you two are wrong. Simply because I'm concerned that my Mom doesn't give me excess cash so that she has enough for herself.
You two are always causing disturance to the class. They've tolerated you both long enough. Yet they kept mum about it. You two are certainly fully aware why no one dares to rebuke you both. So honourable? So intimidating?
What really pricks right in, is that you once called me bestie. Some things cropped up in between and we went separate ways.
Don't you feel the guilt in treating me in this manner, my once bestie?
The incident that happened among you, D and me.
I found out you were the one sowing discord between us a year after. I decided to let bygones be bygones.
Did I confront you and tear off your artificial skin of your face? I didn't.
Did I go around backstabbing you? I didn't.
Did I hate you and try to create chaos in your life? I didn't.
Did I stop worrying about your academic performance and stopped finding out about your life quietly? No, I didn't.
Did you carry a bestie term behind you? Yes, you did. You were/are my friend no matter what happens.
Yet...
Do you know how it feels...?
And Vn, any idea how happy I was when we started talking again, last week, after two years?
You were the one whom turned your back against me overnight, for no apparent reason two years ago.
I chose to trust you again because I believe everyone deserves a second chance.
You betrayed me once again, today. You twisted the truth, as usual. And you backstabbed my close friends.
I've seen it. I get it. You're one I can never trust... Forever...
I feel so foolish.
I'm not seizing the chance to smear the reputation of the three of you. Identities are kept undisclosed.
I'll not allow black sheeps to affect me.
I guess... My first mistake was to leave my skirt on my chair as usual, thinking why not? It's 4A2, my dear class! What's there to worry about?
Second mistake, is to trust you again, to a great extent.
Third mistake, is to ever remember you as my bestie and turning a deaf ear to 0thers!!!
Am I not in low spirits long enough? Am I not vexed enough?
Is it not enough that I'm concealing all these long enough?
Go ahead, fight for all the attention y'all are desiring so badly for.
Chances are hard to come by,
Sometimes, once it's gone, never dream of having a second chance for it may never come by again.
Once it's lost, it's lost. Searching and yearning for it will be all in vain.
So excited, so looking forward to Su qi's birthday celebration with ten odd classmates tomorrow.
So excited, can't wait, to meet my best friend Dinah (Pinah) after the Sakae dinner tomorrow night to catch up with old times.
Heart feels so heavy now.
Gonna control those tears, gonna control those tears, gonna control those tears.
Never mind, tomorrow will be a better day.
I hope.
I'll bring a smile with me to sch tomorrow morning.
Everything will be fine...
Not to worry, pals! :)
(Hai...)
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