a series of events took place during this period just like kaleidoscopes and there's too much to say and i don't wanna share with the entire world because close ones know about my life and so there.
i've got a feeling this post won't make much sense and will be in weird sentences.
i wasn't having flu that night on the phone but i was actually crying uncontrollably over something which wasn't worth crying and remembering of and it was something which struck me hard and left me there struggling to get up even right up to this moment.
every word you uttered just reminded me of every painstankingly taken step to recover and yet i'm not at all close to victory.
the way i lost control of my emotions was exactly the way i did back then, not just for a while, and it gave me a throbbing headache the next day.
moreover you were crying over the phone as well, guess we're on the same boat huh.
i'm very certain i'm not taking you for granted nor making use of you because i've stated everything very clearly. nobody can predict the future so we shall just wait and see.
it isn't by how long that has happened and that i'm expected to have fully recovered from it. the fact that i'm nowhere close to triumph tells something.
i've no idea why i'm wasting my time here when i could jolly well do something else. i've a long list of tasks and have a bad management of time and setting the right priorities. i've no idea why i'm so stubborn and kicks away whoever who attempts to enter my life and take over that place.
i'm not sure if you'd see this but i feel very apologetic towards you, and not only you, for being like this since then, probably it's a phobia till someone is able to help me overcome it apart from God.
many a times there were sparks but it slowly died down probably because i feel afraid and don't even dare to try.
i've updated.