yes i know im supposed to be studying now.
but i just dont feel like.
anyway, no hope for maths already.
grandma called, looking for mum.
then at the end, she asked me to love myself.
and its not the end of world when one friend hurts you.
ahh i supposed third aunt told her.
dad raised his voice at me, telling me he realised that my attitude is very bad and getting worse since weeks ago.
im very sorry.
but.
okay lets talk about today.
from the moment i got home, you asked if i was hungry.
i replied i eaten already.
then you offered me three fishballs. i refused. in the end i forcingly ate one.
next, you offered me a slice of starfruit. i insisted i dont want. you put in right in front of my face.
i persisted. you said, wang ba dan.
next, im in my room revising. you came in with this one bite of honey glazed chicken.
i showed my displeasure. i said i dont want means i dont want. dont keep forcing me and showing food.
i know you care, but put yourself in my shoes. would you like it? not at all.
i sat down reading the birthday card you gave me last year.
i read it, closed my eyes and imagined the scenes when we saw each other in sch.
the feeling is all so different now. completely.
would you just spend a little time, sitting down reading my birthday card.
close your eyes and feel how was it like in the past.
do you feel pain? i believe no more.
all the sweetness have become sorrow and pain, the fact you chose that path and changed, wrecks it all.
i dont know what's gotten over me.
never mind, going to bed soon.
all the best everybody, for your paper and papers!
9:47 PM
i dream of you.
♥