im back as charmaine forgotten all about today.
ive been calling her since i reached home.
and i sent her a message when her phone is turned off.
and when her phone is turned on, she didnt see the message? never mind.
i quarrelled with my father.
he forbids me to close the door and claims i am isolating myself.
i said other ppl do that too, and its normal.
i really think he needs to attend courses on what teenagers are like now.
im super highly irritated.
next he complains that i waste money eating out with my friends.
he interpreted what i said as ppl at his age do not need friends.
never mind, our thinking are like the distance between heaven and earth.
i tried making my points, sadly they dont work.
what, if i reliated further, hes gonna what, drink and drink?
return home dead drunk and start hollering and create a din?
this is called threatening eh.
then what, repeat his violence?
enough is enough.
stop controlling my life.
i know how to think.
i know you feel all these are for my own sake.
but i think you really need to listen to ppl at times.
if i really listen to you, its not because i agree.
its because im afraid i would get the scars like sister did.
im scared ahhh.
dont know if i sound sacarstic here.
and he counted how much the vegetables, rice, soup, meat and whatever ingredient that was on the table.
what a scrumptious meal!! and its only five plus!!
can you imagine that tone????????
WO SHOU BU LIAO LE!!
Lord, its tough.
soon after, i found myself pouting and i felt tears.
today is enough.
ive been putting in effort to stay home.
you keep doing things to make me fear and detest home.
Lord, if its a test, i really cant. i dont have the strength to swallow down everything.
its unbearable...
8:03 PM
i dream of you.
♥