so, i brought my phone to sch as i was saying.
after that, he messaged to ask about the wrapper.
okay,i shall not say, it will take a long time to finish it.
because i wasnt feeling very happy because of that.
anyway, i met him yesterday and helped him to wrap.
thanks alicia! (:
the more ppl say nasty stuff about her, the more curious i get to see if shes really like that.
i used to think the same way as ppl la, but hmm maybe i feel shes not that bad.
it was troublesome. haha then i became her toilet. ummmmm.
he stopped replying halfway.
say lee told me they watched whatever basketball match yesterday.
then blahblah brought girlfriend blahblah.
to say the truth, i didnt feel much. not surprising, as he stopped replying.
should be because they were going to meet.
and i managed to balance my POA!! you know, first time.
raphael, say lee and calvin cant. oh my, this cant be. i hope i can get rather good marks actually.
wei long told me he got a distinction for the first time.
because of the deal leh : D
hmm. si ling wrote me this small note saying that say lee and her actually realised that i have changed quite a lot.
i know that i have changed, and im conscious about what i have changed. because i forced myself to.
anyway i drew this after she said that.
look at this carefully. try to understand what im trying to convey.
ppl are often forced to change and adapt according to situations and setbacks.
in order to survive, i have to change!
i should be pitied and not labelled with the term you-have-changed.
eh?
she said its about the attitude of mine.
she said im not so "rebecca" already. the way i react to things are different already.
in what sense? the jumping up in fright in the canteen? you asking me to accompany you to the toilet for several times?
say lee making funny actions and i no longer laugh?
which?
some things you know you have to change the way you react, thats the way.
some things you just get so used to that it no longer makes your heart throb or make you laugh.
dont you guys know ppl change as they grow?
i didnt know i talk not "ren zhen" to him, has actuallly spreaded to the other parts of my speech and actions.
si ling told trina her mood is bad today. is it because of me?
anyway, shes going over to say lee there more often and talking to her.
when just weeks ago it was me.
never mind la, its not as though its my first time experiencing this thing.
you will only get hurt if you take things seriously and bother so much.
end of what i wanna say.
papaya asked me to colour for him. and i did a little at least.
oh and oh, i realised i influenced some of my friends.
for example, jing yi learnt my hoo.
calvin learnt my dang. etcetc.
vivian tried my handwriting.
si ling has a combination of vivian's and my handwriting that time.
my friends know i dont like ppl to copy me.
but if i can influence them in a good way, i think i have to learn not to mind.
like never mind la.
it dawned upon me its up to me whether i wanna stop loving you or not.
i think its within my choice.
let me think.
i can possibly let you see my blog.
who knows you will take things further more for granted and my dignity would be gone.
warmwarmwarm!
oh, happy birthday shilka!
charmaine suddenly said she cant make it this whole week. never mind.
i feel a little proud of myself.
although ppl kept saying i have changed, i realised things cant very much affect me nowadays.
jing yi reminded me of the games i had with janna and joel. oh my, those days.
nobody would believe our games.
and i remembered gameroom. hahaha.
i was veryvery hungry as i didnt had food during recess.
there i went exclaiming, im hungry! im hungryyyyyyy! hehehe
is angeline in the same boat as me? hmm.
dont instil your thinking into others and expect them to think alike as you.
we are one unique individual.
whats wrong to you may be right to others.
what you think shouldnt be done doesnt mean ppl feel that same way too.