Rebecca
Twenty seventh August, 1992
Seek Ye, Lord!

Web album(Partial photographs) : MY WEB ALBUM

- * * * X X ♥ - -Love before midnight- - ♥ X X * * * -
Always remember the goodness comes from above

blue_angels2701@hotmail.com

Angeline
Benson
Cheryl
Claire
Daphne
Fidelis
Grace <3
Hong lim
Isaac
Jaslin
Joanna
Jonan
Jing yi
Jiun ru
Jie ying
Ke wei
Li hong
Maxyne
Miracle
Nizzam
Pek shia
Phoebe
Say lee
Sandy
Sean
Shi min
Shi min (Germaine)
Si ling
Soo ping
Vincent
Velarie
Wan yee
Wei zhong
Xing xia
Yun ting

2006
2007
2008
2009
2010
2011
2012

Thursday, September 6, 2007

reached home not long ago. had bad stomach cramps just now.
kenny rogers is bad. really bad. im never going there again.
charmaine spent forty over over lousy food. sorry to say that.
but yeee.

while eating, he suddenly replied after three hours. i was okay when he didnt reply.
he said his girlfriend is drunk.
i was like...
then i said stuff that i didnt meant la.
anyway, he said he was on his way already.
somehow i felt lucky that i didnt meet him today.

after which i behaved in a manner charmaine said was very embarrassing. hymh thats the way i am.
my mood was really spoilt. i kept wondering what they were doing.

sorry charmaine. she said, why not next time when you really can be very happy and not like now, then you ask me out la. if not i see you like that i very sian.
then we searched for yee chin's birthday present but to no avail.
she said she didnt wanna spend fifty over or sixty over for her.
then how much you spent for me? you ah.. made me feel so bad.

anyway, i really felt terrible la. sigh i didnt understand why i was still so affected when he said he was going over.
and, charmaine said he told me to make me jealous on purpose and see if he means something to me.

we had a HARD time getting the stupid cab.
but on the cab, i kept thinking and thinking and thinking.
maybe yes maybe no. but i dont think hes that kind la.
maybe he just wanted to tell somebody.
i dont know why am i feeling in this way.
charmaine told me her friend told her something very logical today.
if he really loved you, no matter how much you push him away, he will still be back. and not go for other girls.

i covered my ears and said dont tell me these kind of things.
i had a hard time telling myself he's not like that..
she said okay. next time she will just be there to listen but not give any comments since i dont listen.
we always quarrel or rather, almost because of him. but. aiya, i dont know la.

sometimes, i really feel like letting go...
maybe its true that he really didnt loved me that much.
anyway he has a girl who can make him happy right?
so...

maybe it would be better. i might just hide my feelings, but stop contacting him.
i shall think about this.

im tired, and feeling very unwell.

sorry wei long.

and jing yi said shes not going study AGAIN.
aiya whatever. all the same.
im not in a very nice mood now.
and si ling said see how.
anyway, my mood is spoilt and i dont really feel like going out tomorrow.

sorry to those ppl whom i didnt feel like replying. i meant all.

i wore three quarters today. just for charmaine! cause' we wont meet until after twenty second of sep.

although i can tell myself i wont reply him the next time he messages, by the next morning, i would be fine already. dumb.
maybe its the Holy Spirit getting those negative feelings out of me.
it could be a blessing.

Labels: i really feel im stupid .

11:45 PM
i dream of you.

♥