i have some sort come to a decision already.
i think...
i dont want you in my life anymore.
ppl would be happy for me that i have arrived at this decision.
my next steps would be deleting you off my friendster. actually not really needed.
and blocking you on msn.
and not replying you IF you ever message me.
i see your life is filled with happiness, and you dont face loneliness like last time.
you have much more friends now. i dont have to worry.
i know i would regret doing this. but i seriously see no point.
i cant bear on to wait for your one year.
sometimes human beings have to be selfish to protect themself and survive.
let me be selfish for this once.
but i want you to know, even though i dont want you as a friend anymore,
i will always be here for you.
i will be here when one day she ever hurts you, whether in the same manner or not.
last long! (: you and your jasmine tea.
if i could get over bs, i dont see why i cant do the same for you.
again, its two total different things. let me console myself. hahaha.
do well for your guitar!
do well for your basketball!
please do well for your o levels! (rebecca wont be there to accompany you anymore)
please last long with her!
please be very, very happy. and healthy like i always hoped you would be.
i dont think i wanna visit your blog and friendster anymore. i dont wanna know about your life anymore.
like the one i read, if you want me in your life, you will find a way to put me there.
and like madeline's nick or personal message that affected you SO greatly.
let me quote from your blog.
" seriously, i've been tinking bout tis sentence 'If you love something, let it go. If it comes back, it's yours;that's how you know it' "
i should have done this long ago. even before i found this part from your blog, im already crying.
i dont know why i have to end things like this. but you are really killing me...
i thought of doing this after your o levels.
but i dont think you will give a damn la. it wont affect you la.
i dont like the way you are living differently from last time.
you shall be the first and last person to be this somebody to me.
whether i will treat relationships seriously in future, that will depend on me.
i really feel like drinking two bottles of beer, like charmaine mentioned.
so i wouldnt know what im doing;