i couldnt get to sleep yesterday. woke up again after falling asleep.
very cold today.
i was aching for sch to end quickly.
i have SIP tomorrow. daughter's doing art, so we can go back together.
see wei shen! i told you, you cant escape.
i had so many things to type but forgotten suddenly.
perhaps you feel theres an empty space there, thus you think by putting all those ppl there, that so many ppl to message and comment, it will be filled up.
im telling you you are wrong. well, thats to me.
i made the decision yesterday.
i was just talking about sze li's blog. the open house.
and i came to know through say lee that trina and him are actually in contact.
she said they wanted her number and wanted to start disturbing or teasing.
it started last month. and trina even messages him while she was in class.
cool stuff huh.
now i know why you take so long to reply me.
are girls your entire world?
i didnt see you sitting with your class today.
what for did i get worried if you were still sleeping at home.
im not wrong about you. you are a full-time professional flirt.
i went around asking almost all my friends, "why did you do that for? why are you like that?"
hahaha they gave me interesting answers.
i even asked ahmahdan to help me plant bombs in 4A3. he he he.
or even throw eggs at them. hahaha!
all the more you made me feel im not wrong to make that decision.
in fact i would feel more hurt if i retracted that decision of mine yesterday.
if we are meant to be, the day will come.
jing yi told me sometimes we want something very much, but we dont get it. only to realise we get something better at the end of the day.
daughter told me i should tell him how i feel. everything. otherwise the person would keep misunderstanding.
but look, what if im the one thinking too much, and the other party doesnt give a damn.
what am i supposed to ask, its very embarrassing. i need so many answers but i know i cant get them.
waited for them from two ten to three. i was super hungry.
i was upset, and slept on my table. then i went to help jing yi do batik. oops, yue bang yue mang. hee. sorry.
say lee came over to talk to us today. i told her some stuff, i hope she wont do the same she did before.
i suddenly feel that sch is awfully boring. and the days are long. help.
why did i take so long to come close to the truth?
that the feelings you had for me was a thing of the past.
why was i self-deluding myself.
i depended on past memories that started two years ago, to assure whatever you told me this year still stands.
maybe ppl are right. they said, im lying to myself; i dont dare to face the fact.
its not too late still...
i received a message from my used-to-be best friend. i stopped contact with him after he professed to me.
he asked if i need help, he heard i did badly for all my tests. i was touched.
thanks.
why are you doing this to me if i really meant something to you...?
i really dont get it..
i dont wanna know about your life anymore, i told say lee not mention anything about you anymore. yet i keep asking. dang.
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