Rebecca
Twenty seventh August, 1992
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Saturday, August 18, 2007

wei shan and wen chuan couldnt make it last minute yesterday.
but they cant be blamed.
wen chuan was really funny.

anyway, dinah and i decided to meet up still.
we went to kfc for dinner followed by crepe.
i thought i wont be going there anymore, but yay i got the friendship back.
thank you Lord.
when i first saw her, i felt supersuper awkward.
in fact, i was reluctant to meet her. because its really weird.
then soon, the feeling like last time came back. totally the same feeling.
we watched the fireworks together. its beautiful.
then i realised adly was the same as him. as mean.
i hope things will be fine for dinah.
and we will meet up often.

si ling, say lee and i felt weird.
it happens at times when we three are together and theres silence, suddenly it felt as though we dont know what to say. sigh.
i told you, three friends...
i hate it please.
my experiences were never good.
si ling said, if i think in this way, it would really be like that.
she cut my what ifs and said no, we WONT be like that.
i hope so...

anyway, ge liang messaged me again. thanks.

im feeling really emotional these days. i dont know why.

it seems as though im taking over his role, felt like deciding on something, and going through "hell" and wanting to meet for the last time before i make any decision. its the same.

anyway, i had cip today.
surprisingly, six sec threes turned up. we should have the least number of ppl turning up.
jaslin wasnt sensitive to my feelings, she asked pei ling to pair up with her.
obviously phoebe would go with yolanda.
shue ling was left behind.
actual;y, i pity her. ppl always take her for second choice.
yes, talk about her character and all..
but shes still poor thing la. sigh.
nobody would understand why i just cant go with her.
its not that simple.
thanks daphne, she offered to pair with me or shue ling.
there was confusion. raphael and all.
kar wee asked me to go three with them.
thus i did.
i talked to shue ling, asking if she would feel awkward and all.

some things, no matter how much i fear or die-die dont wanna face,
im still forced to face it in situations like this.
God made me face up to these kind, these days.
first it was dinah then shue ling.

anyway, kar wee and raphael didnt wanna work properly.
miss xu demostrated, starting was super shy and all.
but soon, we got warmed up.
paired with alex.
bought this espresso thingey at guardian for 4.50.
maybe it won mocha.
alex offered to treat me, but well i prefer returning it to him.
ah bengs are realllllyyyyyy nice ppl. seriously.
they donated the most.
i wont forget some ppl. SOME.
they are really etched inside my mind.
seriously they are so nice la.
and we had a great time laughing and laughing like crazy.
haha ask alex.

marcus's jigsaw went chaos.
he got scolded by miss xu.
then we tried to fix up, chye ning, alex and i.
miss xu said she's glad we came. and we are responsible.

i was moved, close to tears.
i dont know why, seeing those kind-hearted ppl.
im really touched.

but some ppl cant be bothered.

anyway, im meeting jaslin later to buy my fbt shorts.
supposingly to be say lee.
but she suddenly messaged to say shes going to watch VIN's match with benson.
aiya, anything la.
then i told her i dont wanna meet already.
she apologised.
im not really mad at this.
just that i was already thinking of him all the time, suddenly saw that name and i.
i dont know.
it feels like shit.

IT JUST SUCKS.

THIS FEELING SUCKS TO THE CORE.

sigh...

I FEEL LIKE TYPING VULGARITIES.

I FEEL LIKE..

I DONT KNOW.

and benson and all went to play basketball at say lee's house there.
im not jealous.
but im awfully sad.
i dont know, shes leading a life, close to them.
whereas im drifting further from these ppl.
whatever, i really dont know what to say.
i only know i lost them.
and.
i dont know.

im feeling weird. and lost. i dont know what im typing.

i feel like dying.
i really do.

and oh, i met Christians.
Christians are nice ppl.
i love God.
Amen.

shall let jaslin rest for a while before im off for my shower and meet her.

i was in prayer last night, as usual.
and suddenly, i said in my heart, happy birthday jasmine.
weird, shes not even my friend, oh well, i dont know.

will he bake for her?
sigh, i shouldnt be thinking of him.
i shouldnt.

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