(dont know what date this is. maybe today? 22ndAugust2007)
have been contacting with charmaine more often these days.
and i no longer feel awkward, somehow like a family feeling.
anyway, stick insect called me days ago. (: well, a little awkward. have not talked for two weeks.
at least he bothers to call.
counting on, its been about four or five days he and i havent contacted.
we used to be like, one day dont contact really can die.
that sort of thing.
i was missing him a lot when he went to malaysia for so long last year.
now, hes forcing me to get used to.
and hes alright with not even contacting me.
now, are you sure when you said nobody can replace me?
you are lying right...
i always remember you sent me a message before going for your sec three camp.
its just a few words, but its really important to me.
i really remember, everything that happened between us in the past.
sadly, everything, everything is gone.
im the only one missing it.
i just downloaded O2 jam. have to brush up my skills before telling chee zheng.
he kept asking for my "biology," haha.
pressing the buttons and hearing the music, brought back the feeling.
during the holidays, i would wake up early to play it. and its like whole day and stuff.
then say lee would come while i was bathing or playing.
i remember, we always go to bugis.
we met up almost every day.
even though she had a beau.
okay its hurting now.
we would go to safra's gameroom. or at night, to timezone, and dinner.
we used to see them there always.
we were really close. she would play her audition and i would watch goong, dreaming of my own lovestory.
always when i was thinking of hi, i would play my favourite song, "waiting for love."
its in korean. i remember forcing myself to play freaking audition because he plays.
he asked me to use the time hes in malaysia to train up.
so i did. but eventually we never got to play together.
i remember one incident. dad and mum were out, not back till one plus and two plus.
i was really scared. he accompanied me all the time.
sorry i took my time to reply you. now its my retribution eh?
sigh.
i was playing tetris. jiejie told me something scary bout' the game, so i got even more scared.
i hate how things are now la.
say lee changed.
he changed.
shue ling gone.
everything changed.
so what if i still have friends now, still have ppl there for me, suitors and stuff.
my life is upside down.
i changed so much because of one person, and obviously with my environment.
i dont know whats my aim in life anymore.
i dont care bout' anything and wait for days to pass like that.
i really cant take it. when i see how much you have changed, v.
5:30 PM
i dream of you.
♥