oh, look what you've done
you've made a fool of everyone...
i am still very irritated by blogskin. really irritated.
and im still trying to find the solution to this.
friends. many i have. but again, not easy to find friends that you really can clique with.
i still have friends talking to me. guys going after me. best friends i just went out with yesterday. and messaging.
but i feel lonliness. i have no idea why. i feel theres this space inside.
i only know, im trying my best to fill it up.
i watched the horror movie, "alone" yesterday. it was awfully scary.
poor si ling, constantly got scared by me each time i grab her sleeves. hehehe!
i was watching through the 1 cm gap between my index finger and thumb, with the other hand there for support.
i kept screamingggggg. and those stupid girls on my right scared me even more with their screaming.
i. planned to sit in between. but.
say lee and si ling had to share popcorn and drink!!!!! ahhhhhhh!!!
thus, i had to sit at the corner feeling a higher sense of insecurity. i push the nachos down the throat.
i was really scared. and i was afraid i will throw the nachos and spill the cheese when the movie starts.
thus, the hurry. hahahah.
but, i like the storyline.
i wanted to watch my first horror movie with the special guy. oh well. too bad.
and, we havent contacted for three days already. used to be two days the most.
its okay. nevermind.
i read shi min's comment. and i realized he does call her. at night as well.
grrr. i know im not supposed to feel in whatever way.
but look, shouldnt he know that he have to treat diffferent ppl in different ways, and not the same to all girls?
i have no idea how the girlfriend ate up the vinegar. hats off.
nevermindnevermind, should be after five days, i think i wont bother bout' him anymore.
that means the four months deal is off.
i didnt exactly meant that three friends is a curse. but, my experiences of such were really bad.
and it never changed.
sigh.
anyway, si ling and say lee are nicey friends. (:
thank you for the two small notes you drew for rebecca, si ling. (:
thank you say lee. (:
hope say lee gets to spend her first month with her dear benson.
and hope benson is fine already.
to me, first month is the most important.
it only happens once.
although the other month annivesaries are important, the first one will forever be the most special one.
am i going to watch the fireworks with zimmer and friends tomorrow??
and im meeting charmaine later for dinner.
she said im very foolish again.
well..
too long, im posting in the next one.
3:18 PM
i dream of you.
♥