6. li hong
7. eugene
8. zimmer
9. firstlove
10. charmaine
11. irwin
12. benson
13. si ling.
14. vivian
15. wei shan
16. ramadhan
17. htay aung
18. charis.
19. reuben
20. calvin.
21. yvonne
22. eileen
23. lenice
24. gina
25. sze li
26. suqi + maureen + shi min? wei shan?
27. calvin
28. dad
29. jie jie
30. xiao gu.
dont know, i just felt like counting.
anyway, i dont think this year's birthday is pleasant. it feels weird.
and i got one over twenty five for my maths test. that i dont feel like going to sch tomorrow.
anyway, its because i wanna skip the damn 2.4
i slept for two hours plus yesterday.
i was feeling very dizzy, and my head was realling hurting and whole body was burning like that.
worse still, dad did his shouting again outside.
it brought me back to the past.
guys say i am unfriendly and like to "act dao" they claimed.
and ppl say i dont say out my problems.
i start to recall, i didnt have a very memorable and beautiful childhood.
anyway, there was violence in the family.
and there are some things i will never forget.
because they happened to me.
daddy and mummy, be glad i am not an ah lian and i dont smoke okay.
im 15! i dont feel very excited. i dont know.
last year, he was the second to wish me, but the fourth this year.
he said he dont think we are meeting today, if not can give me a birthday kiss.
then i mentioned about jing yi. he said he also not close to her.
then i said, you close to every girl la. the haha was extra.
he said hes not a playboy.
im glad when he said all those, because the way we talked recently, somehow made me feel i was wrong in thinking that he has changed a lot. flirtatious and stuff. sorry.
im feeling veryvery tired now.
mum said she wanna order from pizza hut to celebrate my birthday.
i was surprised actually. sorry charmaine, have to meet you later.
anyway, mum would be writing letter to excuse me from sch tomorrow.
then art how? sigh, i have no mood for sch. excuse me please.
thank you to those ppl who bought stuff and cards for me. (:
sorry si ling, because you were doing my card, miss mary punished you to sit on the floor beside the teacher's table with a chair in front as a table. hehe sorry.
raphael was super funny during chem lab today la. hehehe.
really funny.
the hearts that char folded may seemed to just look pretty there.
but i know the effort spent to make them. (:
appreciate it.
i was so touched as i held them and cried. reminded me of him la.
i dont know why, i spent the whole night thinking about the past, i can say mostly was about him. i started reading his past messages... sigh...
he has prelims. i was actually hoping i could spend my birthday with him.
never mind, jia you!
veryvery tired now.
i got shocked by zimmer's card. told you not to tell me now, now im not even sure about the friendship. sigh. i will just pretend i havent seen it. hee.
idiot, never talk on msn already.
anyway the names above from top to bottom, li hong was the first to wish on 27thaugust.
at least v bothered to wish me after twelve. (:
felt weird without the sec fours around.
sorry mdm salwana.
im veryvery tired.
actually just this small little thing can tell me how much i meant to him now
already.
and this is meaning bad.
5:11 PM
i dream of you.
♥