20thAugust2007
i know i have disappointed many people.
im sorry for that.
mrs yeo is concerned, and kept asking what problems am i facing.
she said, "what problems are you facing?"
i said nothing.
"not only i have realised you have slacken through the year, your other subject teachers also feel the same."
i smiled a little and looked down.
"relationship? friendship? family problems? or other problems."
i shook my head to all and said nothing.
she didnt believed anyway.
i said, ppl change what.
she said, yes but whats the reason. last time you were not like that. what happened to you.
i still remember you last time still teach ppl how to do. there, last time you taught say lee when you sat in front, she was pointing to the last time seat.
she still remembers...
sorry mrs yeo...
ever since that day, i have been feeling veryveryveryvery down. cant remember, should be raining these few days.
the sky looks beautiful in grey. as i stared at the rain, my tears fell.
i kept wondering how was i in the past. how was i like exactly...
i just remembered a little.
say lee told me a little, and some other ppl.
i used to go back home with the thinking, oh i have homework, i will do later.
now, i have homework but dont even bring back the materials.
what on earth am i doing.
ppl have said im stupid to like this kind of guy, why can i allow him to hurt me in this way.
if i continue like that, i would torture myself and hurt myself further.
but the fact is he waited for a year and a half.
within that time, my feelings grew really strong.
but seriously, im disappointed to see him flirting with girls.
i really am.
5:22 PM
i dream of you.
♥