im back from meeting charmaine.
i had the catch of the day with lobster sauce, like i had the other day with mummy.
charmaine had no idea what to eat, so i recommended her the chicken stuffed with cheese and ham.
hahaha the thing looked. um. weird. but it was enough to make her full.
we had iced mocha. (: hahaha the first mouth without stirring was. AWESOME. haha! both our faces were like the same.
and i wanted to try chocolate banana with a scoop of ice cream. its a cake.
banana because its yellow in colour.
full. and its so fattening. as usual, I ate the most.
and she still accused me of being tan chi, she kept saying la.
and yay, rebecca got her pillow! for long last.
charmaine paid for jiejie first. so its counted as jiejie's birthday present for me.
she scolded me when i asked if i could buy one big one small.
in the end charmaine bought the small one for me.
i seriously seriously seriously feel verrrrrry verrrrrrrrry bad.
i dont like it.
she kept buying stuff for me. and all dont cost very cheap.
sigh. and the odm watch. its like 179 bucks.
and she wants to buy for my birthday present. dont, its not cheap..
sigh i really feel bad.
and i wonder why do i feel so weird each time im sitting at secret recipe.
my heart really felt weirddd. she said i was thinking too much.
and i saw a shop selling interesting stuff. and. i knew if i opened my mouth and said, "hey, that is so nice"
there, it would appear at the cashier's.
charmaine, i wanna thank you for everything.
you told me you are very happy with some things. or things you heard.
such as, you were glad that i wasnt the same as others.
and that i didnt get influenced by ppl that y'all were bad company.
i wanna be friends with y'all. its ME. i dont have to listen to others.
besides, you lost your mother. i hope to make you happy, and move on well.
i used to say, i hope i wasnt born into this world.
then i wouldnt have to see so many pain and feel it myself.
i used to think lightly of my birthday.
as i grow, i feel im glad that i was born into this world.
at least i could make ppl like charmaine very happy.
and bring joy, even the slightest to others. its enough.
God, please help me to bring light to others' life. i hope i can.
and im happy to see kim seng much happier already.
compared to the past.
keep it this way. (:
Lord, let me see more of others' happiness.
charmaine said i always kou shi xin fei.
something she said today.
actually i prefer the last time you.
"why"
very childish. last time go timezone just wear one t-shirt and one shorts then come out already.
now..
"now what?"
not like now elegant la. now go out with you also dont know what to wear."
aww.. i felt sad. and i told her, i know i have changed a lot. say lee told me so.
she told me her friendster shoutout, was, "i have to be selfish to protect myself."
its true actually. likewise, im changing according to my surroundings because i dont wanna get hurt.
isnt it true??
and i was really disappointed when calvin said my shirt is out almost everytime. im really sad.
i thought it wasnt.
i dont know whats happening to myself.
i feel very lost...
and i saw a guy at dhoby ghaut. not sure about the spelling.
then he looked at me in a very eye-capturing way.
thus, i looked back in the same manner. i was wondering if he was kim seng.
doesnt seem so, no spiked hair. then he kept looking.
had this feeling i knew him. oh well cant remember.
and i saw zhen song and two guys from peixin.
ooosh i actually forgotten i had these friends before.
again we kept looking at each other.
my heart felt weird the whole day. again, whats gonna happen?
rebecca felt happy when charmaine told her that pei rong said im veryvery guai. (:
and she said one day she would go back to sch and tell miss soo, and explain to her.
im really touched. thank you. (:
again, i have been embarrassed in front of the whole sch.
and everything is over, i dont wish to bring it up again.
6:21 PM
i dream of you.
♥