Rebecca
Twenty seventh August, 1992
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Wednesday, June 13, 2007

oppsie forgotten i wasnt viewing anoy.. whatever ly.
oh well.

went to bugis with pinah today.
im really sorry for my bad attitude today.
i dont know whats wrong. but i feel very tired, physically today.

jaslin called at 1+am yesterday, and said qi sheng asked if im going for the chalet.
i said yes after she kept asking.
i revealed actually i dont know how am i going to talk to them.
velarie wont be going.
i think things would be easier in this case.
she told me, " actually hor, shue ling say right, everytime she see you she want to talk to you but then ta bu zhi dao zhen me kai kou."
aww. i was really surprised la. i said REALLY??
in my heart i was wondering if she was sincere.
i have been crying each time i think of the past shueling and all.
still, i wont trust her totally if things turn well eventually. i dont dare.

my tears kept flowing after i put down the phone.
could sleep at 11 actually. but ended up to be 1 am.
jiejie came into my room and said she wants to have a chitchat.
okay. i wouldnt mind.
she told me bout' the jeremy and the real things that were happening.
jiejie i really feel your pain.
suddenly i told her bout yellow. before i even started, tears came already but i looked down.
i dont want her to see them.
she said theres no reason since he has a girlfriend.
both of us were superb at self consoling.
its called deceive in another way, wonder why both sisters have to meet such guys they liked so much yet be treated cold and hot.

i told her to contact him once in a while.
if hes not ready, whatever you do just wont do. you may just make him repel further.
you can only wait until hes ready.
cause' im the same. i will only accept if i can tell myself the him and i wont break. maybe that fast or so.

you have no idea how much courage i summoned just to say a stupid "hey." on msn.
its not easy la. and that stupid guy still cant tell me. hes still taking ages to reply me.
i said a hey. he said, ya?
he sounded so cold. and i dont think he cares anymore la. sigh, i shouldnt have done that.
oh well whatever, it was super embarrassing. he said i made his face red too. sigh.
i then said, hmm nevermind la. then i went offline without bidding goodbye.
i think i have to wait for like 15 minutes before he replied, so what for.
he messaged to say he will tell me on the phone next time. YA THAT MAY BE NEXT YEAR.
always giving "promises", and only accumulate to nothing.
dont promise me anything you stupid skinnyman. (pinah knows him as that)
he messaged and asked if i have been thinking bout' it since he told me he had something to say.
i replied yup, thats why i asked you to tell me as soon as possible.
okay, its a bit shameful for me. i dont know, ppl dont like me already but i still wanna know.
just let things to be clear and save me from the misery guessing without any answer.

i hope you are doing well with her.

and i have a feeling i will lose say lee.

saw benson that day, wednesday? i was shocked, i was saying something bout' learning the tortoise then he appeared.
then i made a stupid sound. his brother was there too. sorry,
just went to read his blog. his parents were in an accident. aww... benson, i hope you can be find.
i think im a villian. causing him to lose say lee and now he has to worry for his mother.
im really sorry...

rebecca, you have to go on with the love ppl shower you.
dont disappoint them.
once yellow make things clear, erase him away alright?

i want my yellow handbag.
i want the tee shirts.
i want the vest.

oh yes, wei shan said her grandfather had an accident and has to go back to malaysia.
its okay, i know you didnt mean it : )
i just hope he will be fine.

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