happy birthday jiejie.
happy birthday jay jee.
happy birthday ying da.
aww i screwed my stupid physics.
and it was difficult. reallyreally difficult!
sigh, at least i didnt give up halfway HOR. i tried... but i wrote crap and all. sigh...
my social studies was better. hee.
today was thundering loud. i wasnt really terrified though. i dont know why.
i wrote about the perth's trip. (wu hui) for the chinese paper. sigh, i cried halfway.
it still hurts. but i wrote at the end, if they were to turn back and apologize, i would definitely forgive them.
but Lord, do you think its possible? and i dont like crying in public. well eventually i did.
actually its a little hard to believe a good friend, just overnight... then like that.
and my back is aching.
sigh, ever since yellow called me that time, i wasnt reallyreally sad already.
i just wanna know the truth. but it gets even harderr to sleep.
i was on the bed before 12 last night. past 1 over i still couldnt sleep.
sigh. i kept thinking bout' that chalet. why is it so strong?
say lee said, the moment benson appeared, i changed until very what.
thats because i dont know how to treat you, i dont know if it was a rash decision of yours that day.
but you seem bolder and really happy after you got with wan. so, i wish you all the best...
benson, i cant tell you to stop thinking. cause' i know how that feels.
i seriously know. whatever you type or what i understand. ive been through it. or rather im still going through it.
ppl laugh at the way i talk. and say im young and have no experience.
but they dont know God have been training me since young.
well thats my opinion.
Lord, i wanna thank you for letting me know yellow didnt really had a change of heart.
i seriously dont know how i would get together again. and i know benson cant pull himself together no matter what.
i seriously think theres no way la. but maybe he can, its less than one year...
wan tries to ask say lee to acc. me whenever im around. and i feel bad. you dont have to do this.
cause' you weigh heavier to say lee already. no point you know. hah..
and i called SL barbarous. hehehehhehehe.
thinking of softball really gives me the creeps. and im sorry mcdonalds, i have a feeling i will leave softball...
no more softball chalet. no more firstbase catcher. no more you all. nothing.
i dont know. but my heart seemed to have made the decision.
and im appaled at how i have gritted on for these years in softball. im really amazed.
mr yeo said he didnt know i could go through. he thought i will drop out.
im sorry i will disappoint you... i have no choice.
but i cant give up just like that la...
and mummy, sorry for always giving you attitude. sigh.
and i heard you coughingandcoughing last night. i cant console you but i wish you will recover soon.
and do well yellow, do well benson, and that group.
i wanna see all of you smile!
and wei shen, dont keep sleeepingggg! please! you really made me worry. its midyear!
and i seriously dont like that redshirtbluestripeywhite shirt fella. grr. hymh.
sorry jiejie i cant give you a gift today. its exams and im broke.
really sorry. i wish that all will go well for your work and studies. and please, a stable love life.
sigh, there are many things i wanna wish you and such. but i cant la. so hard to say out.
and i told you bout' yellow. but i refused to tell you the name. and oh, you know his name,
how come?? i know i cant fall into temptation no matter what.. blahblah..
i know i know. i saw what happened all around me.
and will you really wait until my Olevels are over?
i seriously cant have faith.
and if you really dont wait, thats too bad for me.. not you...
really cant start in secondary sch. it wont work out... im not mature enough to handle this kind.
its inferiority. you will never know yellow.
i hope everyday's like exams day.. its much relaxed and i dont have to face so many ppl.
who i dont wish to see.
and sorry mr tang, sigh. i did try. but you told us the wrong important points.. cant blame you. i put in more effort for SS than physics. sigh. and now its gonna pull down my entire results. dang.
1:36 PM
i dream of you.
♥