Rebecca
Twenty seventh August, 1992
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Monday, May 28, 2007

somehow words in italic make me scrunch a little.

today's chinese o level paper for the sec 4s.
i wished dearshimin first. all the best.
i told her to wish that best friend of hers twice if she knew why.

i wanted yellow to think that i dont care.
i was controllingandcontrolling.
haha then i sent to yellow, "all the best for your chinese"
i tried to sound cold and without much expression.
he then replied back thanx.

i felt better inside.
no sense of cheekiness or flirtatious expressions from him.
finally.
yeahyeah, i felt sad that things had changed.
things will never be like the past.
not now, never ever.
so go on being loving with your girlfriend, and this is sincere.

i finally found the reason why i couldnt let go after about 5 months.
he had tried contacting me, and when i talked to him in a different way, he never got a clue how i was feeling inside.
he wasnt ever sensitive.
it dawned upon me that the way he treated me was like how i was to calvin.
i could take half an hour, hours to reply him.
likewise yellow did to me.
i think its retribution.

i dont know how calvin is feeling within. but definitely i wont put myself in his shoes.
so unless he tells me, i wont know.
so that is the same happening here.
hah.

the cross stitch ive been touching since i wake up and to night.
its all the love and pain i will replace in.
it doesnt matter whether the needle pricks.
i just wanna make myself tired just to be able to sleep at night.
i dont wanna shed my tears for you anymore yellow.

im just living in a fantasy world,
even the dreams that i weave on my own would make me smile but tear later all, its all worth .

happiness for you is all i want.
i dont have to be with you.
i dont need lies that somebody might wait for me..

dont you think i wanna find someone else to love and forget you?

Labels: cooping myself at home hoping to grow stronger before i learn to face the world with a different heart .

3:41 PM
i dream of you.

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