i thought it was healing by now.
but i was wrong.
i cried again last night, let them go only when mummy went to buy groceries.
its feeling all raw again.
i wa really touched by say lee's message.
my friend, i will wait for you...
aww my back is really hurting, even the right side now.
sigh, i feel as though i have succumbed(whatever the s.p is) to all.
i feel like jelly, ugh, that feeling is horrid.
i couldnt resist the clicking again.
so there i went, all changed.
the words just slowly hurt me as i read.
shes pretty and i hope she will treat you well...
its as though i have just realized i shouldnt have pushed myself deeper down.
i suppose i will be cold towards you once again.
why?
i cant gather my strength again.
God, is yellow that important to me?
i dont want him living in my heart anymore...
in fact i wanna hate him.
so i can forget him and not want him as a friend.
and yay, jay jee appeared with a : P
is this consoling from You, Lord?
thank you...
sigh, i hope you can sew up those fuggly things in the place where blood pumps out from.
PLEASE.
and bless that say lee will be happy.
and not hurt her little eyes anymore.
its even harder to find the drive now.
5:55 PM
i dream of you.
♥