yellow was like a reporter la. lastest update! haha. hmm eileen and benson got together yesterday but broke up too.
then yellow said its better to say if he called me. so i thought, since whatwhat already, so no harm.
i told him to call my house, after sending the number, i regretted a little.
it was awkward la. i kept walking around my room as i talked.
then it reached the awkward topic about us.
i asked him manymany questions bout' him and other ppl.
but he just couldnt tell me. he wanted to, but he said he cant.
there i went, kept askingandasking. he was firm. haha.
he called me at 12+. then i realized, it was 1+ then going 2+
we kept talking and talking.
he gave me clues why he couldnt tell.
he said, only after when he's not with her, he can tell me. and its about me. and something drastic will happen.
whats that?? i really dont know! grr. he just stood firm.
he kept saying i didnt wanna tell him anything.
then i stood by the window, looking at vehicles going by.
i looked at the road, that familiar one. and the place of the "bollywood". aww.
there were many stars in the sky above me. 3 really bright and twinking ones.
yellow told me about the lives of stars. he told me they are actually emitting or reflecting the light of the sun since 100 years ago. and some stars are dead already. aww how interesting. i never knew.
he said there were only a few in his sky. haha! the stars dont like you, cause' you dont wanna tell me. hehehe.
we talked bout' so many things.
then many a times, he reminded me of many things. everything i told him he remembered all.
and he said he remembered everything i told him. hee. any idea how i felt?
i told him i remembered things he told me before too.
sigh. everythings so...
and he reminded me of the card he gave to me, the one saying he wished there would be a chance for us to watch the stars together.
i realized he is.. still the same.. just that he has a girlfriend.
i suddenly missed edwin. hehe i tried making yellow jealous.
then he kept mumbling, who's edwin? who's edwin? hehehe its funny.
and yellow said if i had a meal with him, then he will tell me. unfair!
when many times we kept silent, he said weird. weird la you. then i will go on, you then la. not me..
sigh. he doesnt know what i want and i dont know what i want.
he said, he wanted to wait for me until my o levels end. he said he wanted..
but he said, aiya cant tell you already, hehe any idea how i felt again? hehehe.
i playplayed and said, aiya maybe i should choose calvin.
he went like, WHATT?? hehehe. but before that i said i should just accept calvin la. he said go LOR.
then he kept saying, he doesnt want me to choose calvin. even if i want, he will not allow. hehehehe.
haiya, got girlfriend already, why are you still saying all these?
it really makes me feel bad. cause' im depriving him of his sleep and i feel bad cause' he has a girlfriend already.
and i know he will hurt her soon. i dont know.
we talked for 5 hours and 6 minutes. which was like 5+ in the morning.and i was surprised i allowed him to call me and talk till wee hours in the morning.
yellow, what are you thinking of?
"and i thank you God, for everything. i thank You for bringing all my friends to me. and yellow. i am really grateful! please bless everyone to be happy and healthy always.
and that yellow can pass all his subjects and i can keep going. and never give up on my studies. Lord, give me strength!"
i have never felt so happy since that long. and i woke up smiling to myself.
4:37 PM
i dream of you.
♥