say lee asked if i went for the softball match. shit, i forgotten! i said yeah i went.
then she knew.
then she replied this.
oic... Nth larhx. Thot whr u went. Hahax. Btw, Mr Chia said abt the chem remedial tat Miss Liu complained to Miss Soo i tink. Miss Kaur noe abt it oso...
hah! great!
big trouble's in for me...
sigh.
why am i doing.
rebecca, renbecca, what the heck are you thinking! why are you doing this to yourself.
sigh.. im really afraid now. i dont know how to stop all these nonsense im doing...
im afraid i will have to serve SIP and more disciplinary attention will be on me. sighsigh.
anyway, OP lost to catholic. it was really tough la.
oh yes, we alighted and saw this super tall caholic guy.
so i told them hey! lets follow him.
he walked really fast!
haha so we went on with him, until this sec 3 guy appeared then he led us there. with normal walking speed.
it was awfully hot..
daphne was there already. she kept asking who wanna go out there and watch.
sorry but it was too warm i kept declining her. sighsigh.
you know me, im the type who just says short comments whenever i have the feel.
jefferey was approaching. then i said, hey! that boy very cute leh!
then shue ling said she felt like bashing me.
im like HUH? (whatever for??)
then she said she cant stand me. daphne turned and asked what happened?
i told her. then daphne said why are you so offended?? plus some stuff i couldnt hear.
she kept asking why are you so offended?? thank you daphne.
then shue ling looked so embarrassed and said dont know dont know.
after that, jaslin and shue ling went off, jas said BYE REBECCA!
im like. whatever. attitude again. not as though i havent tasted before.
then i went off with daphne.
they kept neglecting me, i felt so out of place. sigh...
anyway marcus soh, and all were really cute today! hehehe they kept jumping around and kept laughing. hehe.
glad that their mood werent spoilt.
they kept neglecting me.
i felt so odd.
after the match, daphne came to talk to me. then we talked about a lot of stuff.
both of us were wondering, why is it always the same ppl? why is it always us.
OH AND ITS ABOUT AN HOUR ALREADY. JASLIN HAVENT CALLED ME. SIGH, WHY MUST SHE BE LIKE THAT...
back. but at least she still has marcus... though he cant understand some things, she still has her love...
i dont have,..
we both agreed on those similar ppl. how we thought of them.
i told daphne its so hard for me to fit in. its like.. even if im unhappy with them at times.. i have to act as though im fine to fit in..
cause' they are my teamates. i have to work with them next year! how torturing eh?
she doesnt like her teamates at all. sigh.
she feels as though God doesnt exist.
im gonna try stay firm and not be swayed.
she says we believe in God and whatever, cause' we just wanna place our faith and belief onto somebody else.
quite true actually. but i still believe God exists.. i dont know if im deluding myself.
but the church teaches me, God loves us and is always there for me.
God, please chain me tight to the belief you exist!!
sigh, im really scared. dont know of what. but im just feeling insecure...
sigh.
perth is coming.
and they have to do this...
like i said, i know the ROTATION will go on.
i dislike over whiney girls. yeeew.
i dont know why i have this weird feeling over grace.
daphne has over shilka and shi min.
sighsigh, when will the world be ever so beautiful?
life seems so weird to live suddenly.
and im still waiting for her call.
sigh, feel so tired. have no mood for anything.
i dont know whats my aim.
but i do know TROUBLE'S WAITING TO COOK ME ON MONDAY.
do you still wanna go out???
oh yes sorry jun cen. didnt call you and pretended not to see you.
hah i turned back and saw you waving bigly in the air. hahaha i smiled back.
take care primary sch friend!!
oh noo oh noo im getting a little rude.
1:24 PM
i dream of you.
♥