yay it rained today, like what i wished for.
yesterday was thundering.
God helped me to sleep.
sorry yi ma, sorry biao ge, treated y'all so coldly. didnt even say a word of hi. really sorry...
the weather's so irregular lately.
i feel cold when ppl dont feel cold. i feel warm when ppl dont feel warm. i feel cold when ppl feel cold.
having headaches and a little sore throat. sigh, so weak eh?
couldnt tolerate say lee already.
when i reached sch, i was already giving her the cold shoulder.
not that i cant forgive, i just feel so. AHH!
shes like only thnking for herself.
actually, i wonder. ARE WE CLOSE FRIENDS AT ALL?
i mean its natural that we will go recess blahblah together. well shes like.. haiya.
so i asked her, you going recess today? not going tell me first.
she went like, why eh?
i went like, cause' if you are not going, then i will go look for my friends.
she said dont know eh.. should be not.
she doesnt wanna eat, so she doesnt wanna go to the canteen. cant she accompany me?
i asked her to yesterday. she didnt want. oh well.
and, its not only me who thinks that say lee is whatwhat.
wan too.
im rather surprised.
she called me up to ask bout' eng. then i spoke to her about wan.
she seemed rather CONCERNED.
i just feel that she likes wan. but she keeps saying her famous speech. dont know leh, dont know leh.
you keep asking ppl question. and everyday, you will get a dont know leh, dont know leh, why leh??
would you feel pissed.
yes i will.
its been too much giving in. im gonna stop now, told wan too.
she has to know shes been making mistakes and she keeps taking and not giving in at all. not at all...
sigh, why is she like that? has she always been like that or??
wan you should give up on her la.
she said, ben lai bu xiang lai xue xiao de.
i asked why. she said not feeling well. she doesnt seem that unwell though.
most probably its cause' of wan. thinking too much, spoils health.
sigh. things are most probably not gonna get better if you continue being like that. so self centered.
hehe thank you zhao min. she said she will miss me when i go to perth for 1 week!
hehehe she wanna have dinner with me on saturday before i leave. hehehe.
but i told her to message me again, im not too sure. but i will find time to meet her. : )
zhao min, be more happy! dont always stress yourself out!
alright, back to my theory of rotation. its just rotation, rotation...
guessed so already. jas, vel and sl, and jing yi they all were sitting at the table there.
went to look for them, they made me feel so odd.
sigh. why must like that.
oh yes, its JUNG KUN'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!
happyhappy birthday jing kun!
must be a strong boy okay? cannot cry easily anymore. hehehe. : )
asked JING KUN if its his birthday today. he turned back and smiled so happily.
hehe he must be really happy. my first time seeing him smile so beautifully. : )
kian meng had to chase JING KUN, so i missed my chance to wish him.
haha.
went to the canteen again wanting to find jas they all.
but was afraid i will see Them.
shi min came by, she asked never go training ahh!
hehe then she said da pi gu ar. hehehe glad that we are more social. hehehe.
t
hen i saw mdm salwana talking to vel, sl and jas. sigh. again i felt left out.
the three of them went almost hand in hand together to the general office to get jas's ic.
dann. they just left me there. sigh
then mdm salwana asked me to follow her to the GO.
sigh, 3 of them there talking so happily to their "er jie"
i felt so odd.
then i realized jas they all were going for the speech day. she didnt ask me.
she claimed its cause' im not close to li ran they all. so.. nevermind.
then on and on and on.
suddenly i saw kian meng from the window panes.
oh no! i had a bad feeling. true enough, i turned back and saw yellow and him.
ahh!
he looked so excitedly to open the door. too bad. you saw me. so he quickly walked away.
then in came kian meng, he came to buy tickets. two rows all by them.
huh~ how to go watch.
then mr low came, the lady told mr low we are the 4 going.
hehe i tell you, mr low is sososososo cute! the way he talk and smile.
he wished us all the best. : )
thank you mr low.
they kept ignoring my presence.
then came mr nath, hehe hes very nice too.
so we are not going for training today.
jas was staying back with jing yi. say lee went home already i think.
jas seemed as though she didnt want me to stay around though. no choice, nobody else i could find in sch.
then jing yi was friendly to me. thanks.
luckily andre was there too.
he spoke to me. then he used the fluorescent white marker to write my name on the table, just beside where my arm was resting.
hehe i looked at it and smiled. hehehe thank you andre.
then the group was just in front. sigh.
then he came to take his bag. it was just on the table there beside mine.
then he sat there, i guess packing a little. then i turned my head a little to peep, then he turned a little too. sigh. what strangers.
then i quickly turned back, my heart felt so heavy.
then i and andre talked about those stuff. then he was really concerned for me,
hehe thank you andre, really appreciate it.
and i have no idea why jaslin was like glaring or giving me attitude all the time.
whyWhyWHY?
sigh. nevermind, theres andre, it will be enough.
andre, hope that your back can recover soon. : )
like what maxyne said, if theres anyone to be there, it will be andre. and i totally agree.
not every guy can sit there patiently to listen and feel your pain and try to help you, without complaining or mocking at you.
issabelle, love him lots okay? andre said he donesnt reallyreallyreally love her that much,
well, maybe time can change things.
i wrote detest penguins! on my hand, it was pinkish purple in colour. but it smudges.
haha andre thought i cut my hand. hehehee. so funny.
i told him i had the temptation many times, but im not so silly to hurt myself.
i then worte ai on the table, with a curve line below it to link them.
obviously, its andre-isabelle. hahahah
guess what andre guessed?
ANDRE IDIOT?
hahaha its really funny! i cant stand it!
went home then cried a little.
dont know why though.
8:44 PM
i dream of you.
♥