had art today.
miss pamela soh asked for an individual talk, to talk about each of our strengths and weaknesses.
she said im a veryyy creative and you know full of ideas person.
but the problem is, YOU SPEND TOOO MUCH TIME ALREADY!!!!!!
hehehe. she said she could easily give me 70 or 75.
but the problem is i dont hand in assignments on time. if she wants to pull me down, she wont feel good cause' she knows that isnt my standard.
hehehe. im really happy you know.
so she encouraged me to try to get things down faster!
she said draw whatever that you feel first, dont keep thinking how to make it better.
aiya this one not nice. MISS SOHHH! THIS ONE NOT NICE!!!! HOWWWWWWW!
hehehe she told me this.
miss soh asked in the beginning, "what are you frightened off?"
i heard it, i dont know why, it pricked me. i was a little stunned.
miss soh seems aloof and ppl detests her.
but i feel the other way round.
i think shes nice, but shes unique.
in a sense that she doesnt return pupils' greeting but only friendly during art class. hehe miss sohhhh! : )
yay, josie and pang gua waited for me for my art to end. hehehehe : ))
then i played khafiq of afiq or whatever fiq's's PSP.
haha, i was drving!
and like i always do, i start to turn my body like the car.
hehehe, josie and pang gua commented on me playing chicken little.
suddenly, i remembered.. sigh, its been ages since i went to mr blue's house.
i miss seeing him so happy with vel!
i miss CHICKEN LITTLE! ahhhhh!! sigh.. : (
jun xiang looked weird today.
he waved waved past the screen i was staring into.
i shooed shooed him, i thought he was disturbing.
im sorry! i didnt know you wanted to speak to me.. so sorry! i wasnt there when you needed someone to lend a ear.
then mr blue messaged me. then we talked online.
hehehe cynthia and xingxia like you ah?
HEY! THE MSN HOMEPAGE'S TECKO IS SO CUTE. HEHEHE.
YOU MOVE THE MOUSE UP, THE SPOON-LIKE THING TICKLES THE HEAD.
HEHEHE THEN THE HEAD BOBS UP AND DOWN.
okay. backback. he asked if cynthia was good.
i said i dont know afterall i dont know her very well.
so i said she smiles at me most of the time when she sees me.
i told him, whether they are true or nice, its not wise to get into a relationship now. theres os for him and he may grow to be more mature after he graduates.
LORD! i think i got the question to why im going through so much shit and its too much for me to take...
hehe i remember praying to you in primary sch, asking you to give me all the suffering and let my friends be happy and not go through them.
so that eventually i can help them and they will not feel pain.
hehe thats what you are granting now right? you are preparing all these so that i can help and
tell poor jun xiang whats going on right?
thank you Lord! im glad i can of help to make jun xiang happier.
he then asked me if i know who he liked before vel, actually i know.
and i hadnt put that of f my mind at all..
he confessed to me before. now, again, im thinking what would it be like if i had accepted him back then.
but again, it would be a mistake.
but now if he were to fall for me once more, should i? if he confesses, i will set myself to really fall for him. but i know its selfish...
LORD, I FEEL LIKE AN ANGEL SENT BY YOU ON MANY MEANINGFUL AND HEAVY MISSIONS!!
weeeeee. hehehe. but again, im so shameful to say this. hah...
yay rebecca is happy today.
but, lying down today.. i kept thinking of you.
i dont know why is it so hard to put it down. whywhy.
sigh.. i hope the new chances my friends and softball gave to me will bring me away.
and my current rotation of world
but rebecca, never forget.
you said the word rotation yourself.
so be prepared for the rotating to occur again. anytime. when God deems..
im acting happy
like the examples i see.
they seem successful to decieve...
i shall learn.
8:15 PM
i dream of you.
♥