thank for you buying me the pants and 2 cds today.
sigh, you told me im trying to drfit from y'all.
sigh, forgotten to put the foolscap back into my room! guessed my mum peeped at it.
e said the same stuff.
im sorry... i dont mean to be like this.
went out with my mum and sister, had pizz hut for dinner.
jiejie paid. sorry again, i can see how much effort she is putting in to make me go close to the family again.
shes trying to make me happy. :(
sorry. they kept complaining that i looked so tired, so lathargic and blahblah recently.
mum asked me to sleep earlier everyday, she went on and on.
it is not that i dont wanna, but even if i go to bed early, i will end up sleeping past 1 or 2.
mummy wants me to sleep well, so she bought this thingey i think 200 over or more but less that 500 i suppose to cure it. thank you!
sorry for letting you spend so much.
yay i bought sandals today.
sigh, i really wanna sleep well! but my mind doesnt allow me to, i feel tired but damn, i simply cant fall asleep.
im reallyreally sorry calvin, hadnt replied your messages promptly or even none.
im really sorry, you kept probing why, i was just full of excuses.
sorry, but i really dont feel like messaging or replying at all.
it just reminds me of the past la, and i seriously dont have any mood at all.
its like dont bother, sorry. its unfair to you but i cant help it ya.
my back's really killing me!
"yay" holidays are here. so?
it hurts... to think that you wont be messaging me till 2+ 3+ anymore.. i dont have you anymore...
instead, when i imagine you telling her all those stuff you used to tell me, i feel even worse.
its like... sigh, i dont know... haiya.
yes i want you to be happy, but.. again, i dont know...
i was planning what to reply you should you come online.
i wanted to say, "can you not talk to me anymore?"
you will definitely ask why, or whatever i still treat you as a friend stuff.
so i will say, "i just dont want..."
i just wanna cut off totally from you. i wanna forget me. can you please let me let go????"
my sister is watching goong now. i heard the song, so familiar. i used to be messaging during that timing. reminds me of what i was thinking when i was watching goong in the past.
so much memories, so many tears, so many touching smiles, so many laughters, so many fears.
gone.
suddenly.
how do you want me to climb out of that pit?
it came known to me that we have spent a year plus together with many memories.
though i never accepted you, though we are not in an official relationship, i supposed the feeling is mutual.
but... i cant expect you to wait that long either. i expected you will give up. but not cause' you have fallen for another girl.
whywhywhy, you could have told me earlierrrrrr! you shouldnt have dragged on.
so what if you asked me for a just one time face-to-face talk. so what you told me you have a lot to tell me, so what, so what?
you didnt want to wait for me anymore. in the end..
"how nice if he hadnt confessed to me
only to know he will give me up eventually.
how nice how nice if i didnt let him take a further step...
how nice how nice if i hadnt been taken in by his sweet nothings
FOR PRACTICALLY EVERY GIRL.
stupidity. yes, wei zhong, love is but a dream...
oh yes! stupid bing shun! why did you peep at my green cushion!
hehehe its funny the way you pronounced mirayges.
kar wee pronounced mirahge. hahaha you looked so embarassed.
who asked you to call me an ah lian. grr..
jun xiang, hope you are fun. hahaha heard that two girls are going after you? haha be happy. may all your wishes come true.
sorry but im not a fairy, i cant grant you your wishes.
the wish granting angelon my thumbnail is just to deceive myself.
ha, this northview guy just asked me on msn, you are? then he started asking me stuff then asked if we could exchange numbers.
i went to his friendster. okay, expected.
then i read on, this guy loves this guy that he is going after a lot.
reallyreally alot... so touching!
this jun yuan is like out to play with girls.
he asked if we could exchange numbers, i said sorry no, i dont like to give ppl i dont know.
he said oh okay. lol. nevermind. lol.
haha! embarrased right!who asked you to be a flirt.
i regretted soon after. haiya! i could have given him! we might know each other better and then go steady right?
then i will be happy, and forget him right?
then later on be a big ah lian who is notorious in northview too right?
ppl will start hating me even him too right?
i will then be the happiest girl andlet myself sink deeper into the love that i know the guy doesnt take seriously.
hah., if only i had given my number... such a waste! haiyahaiya!
i shall not forget and give the next guy who asks for my number.
11:34 PM
i dream of you.
♥