I've finally bucked up my courage to type Miss Kaur the letter to tell her that I would be leaving the council board.
Im really sorry, Miss Kaur, and Mr Naufal. I gave you my word that I would stay on. And especially, Mr Yeo.. Im sorry... You said that you hope after 2 years when you return to Orchid Park Secondary, you would see me still in the council board. and happy.
but im sorry.. its really xin ku inside. I cant take it anymore. I will always remember the things you have taught me and said to me. I will never forget them. But im really sorry. I have thought about this for since the starting of this year already, I struggled to stay on for you all. and the memories and ppl in the council board I can bear to let go.
but still, i have to go, I wanna be an ordinary OPSS student, who looks foward to school. running, jumping, playing all she wants. and not let the badge and tie bind her up. its not her at all.
but sorry, miss kaur i i have to hide some stuff from you i cant let you know. i guess you will feel hurt. as for the malaysia trip, i lied to you. i was just desperate to tell you i couldnt make it for the councillor camp. sorry! i will try to tell you the truth one day.
sigh... i hope that miss kaur and i can still have a good relationship.. afterall, shes my favourite sec 1 teacher. i heard shes gonna teach my class english next year, i hope she wont pick on me, and i will have her as my favourite sec 3 teacher. hope!
feeling really bad... well, this is the letter i typed...
Miss kaur,
Im typing this mail to you to tell you that i have decided to leave the student council board.. I know you would prefer a face-to-face talk, but I wouldnt dare.
Actually I thought of writing a letter to you personally instead, but i think theres no way to pass it to you. But, im not quiting just because my clique has quit, its just because I dont feel im really inside this councillor family, and I just cant seem to really mingle with the other councillors.
Some of the councillors and I have different views regarding duty time, I dont wish to emphasize.. I dont think that I can be a real good councillor.
The reason I stayed on, because I have made promises to you, Mr yeo, and Mr naufal. I cant leave just because I want to, I have to think of all of you first, plus there are things I cant let go. I thought of the things you said before like abandoning, and I told you I would try, I felt really bad so this kept me stay on.
It was really tough. Im sorry, because I really dont think I can stay on already. I told my senior about this, and she said Miss Kaur will understand,
so.. I hope you can understand and that we can maintain a friendly teacher-student relationship, whereby I can smile at you, and vice versa.
If my friends were to ask me whether I quit or got sacked, I will just smile and try to avoid their question because I dont want them to think very badly of the council board, and I know you dont wish so too.
I hope that the other councillors would be happy, and definitely you, Mrs Rupesh and Miss Soo. Im sorry!
Rebecca
6:24 PM
i dream of you.
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