sorry mummy, for screaming "with you" over the phone 2 days ago. hmm maybe i was feeling a little unhappy about that regarding matter already, plus im upset with some things silently, so i guess i just raised my voice to let things out.
oh yes, say lee fell sick on monday, all plans had to be changed. hope she has totally recovered.
hmm as for him, i have been messaging with him these few days for like early until as even earlier as 4+. hmm sorry for being so wilful, but im just wondering why some things you have to keep from me. i talked seriously, then you said i sounded serious. i bluff, and said hahaha you are thinking too much.
well, that's because i felt really bad, and told him i was jusr sayingsaying about things. and sorry and so forth. but i cant let him know, i dont wanna let anyone feel bad...
hmm today's meal with san yi and grandma was postponed to next week.. aww.. was kind of really looking forward to it. nevermind.
hmm i guess he fell asleep yesterday, which is goood, haha, waited a while then i fell asleep too. time of the month, more tired.. hehehe. sorry that im not making it for the bbq. hmm i think he keeps asking me to give me a chance, wanting to call me, asking me to come for the bbq, he has something up in his sleeves. he ah.. so silly and crazy. hahaha.
i admit thats he's really a nice guy, nicer then those ppl who asked me before. but you need two parties to give in before any more feelings can develop. well, i didnt really think much of those ppl. they claim they will wait FOREVER, which then i didnt really think i would fall for them. so after a while of waiting, they decided to give up and go for another girl. im like, aww!
dont know what to say. he was the one, and e, who i gave them a further step closer.
others i put a full-stop right there. sad that i have lost those friends, who used to care for me. now im wondering if its because they are really hurt by me, or they cared so much bout' me cause' they want the greenlight for me.
well i dont know. hmm i cant give you a chance yet, i dont feel the faith that it can be thattt long.. im afraid, anyway next year you will be graduating already... things will definitely change, your life would start on another path. hah, im just afraid since things are not forever, the day to end will come too, so might as wel.. not
go through the hurt.
hui xia told me, “不在乎天长地久， 只在乎曾经拥有。”i know that too..
well take it as im useless and weak that i dont dare to try that short-term chance. sorry.. but i will try. i hope that i can do a beautiful job for mummy later, that wall. God, help me okay? hee.
and sorry say lee for rushing you. take care everyone...
oh yes i hope that we can find ourbags today at cineleisure. and find that sasa shop.
phew! say lee almost discovered my blog. luckyluckylucky. i dont want anyone to know, because they are my feelings. say lee! better
not find out the link!
11:50 AM
i dream of you.
♥