hmm, i've finally completed that sun thingey that my mother wants, she thinks its nice overall. so i feel fine. but later on then she told me she painted a little white, and there are 3 stupid white pactches on it that i have repaint, and its the small one which i did just like that, without really planning. how to do it again? its not just so easy like "just like that paint that paint again lor" its not, i actually felt pissed. because i dont like anyone to add anything or modify to something that i have done, like art stuff. but its already done, what more can i scold..
actually didnt feel like going for the softball friendly today, my interest is actually going ddddooooowwwwnnn. but still, i decided to go, though not as enthu like before.
thankfully jaslin called my house then i woke up, they called my handphone but it was charging and silent mode, i couldnt hear my alarm too. looking at the nine sec 3 players, we wanted to turn back home, but since we were out already, we decided to stay on. all of us were sooo tired, plus i havent had a good early sleep since dont know when. i dont know why.
hmm sorry yesterday didnt reply your message, i couldnt receive the second one, plus i had to sleep for energy, but i still slept late because i couldnt like just ignore him.
then at the mrt station, jun xiang returned me my magnet egggss, it was the wrong time to return! shue ling was standing by the pillar so i decided to scare her with those egggss s' sound but i threw it over the handrail and it landed on the metal piece below! oh gosh! i felt so sad.. left one precious one only.. aww... i tried attracting the other one but ya.. it wont be possible. so, goodbye to it. i think im gonna ask someone to sweep it down for me. i want it back!
hmm actually quite happy when SL told me that jaslin thinks that im drifting from the softballers.. and only going out with say lee.. i feel bad too. you think i dont wanna be like last time, as much as you wish? i do! but its so hard when my friends are changing with their surroundings and i cant fit in, the communication goes so rough with y'all different funny language. ppl change, so do y'all.. but at least im happy today that i could talk to y'all, maybe
things are improving.. im trying my best... i hope it works.
hmm then i bore out my feelings to vel , about him.. we talked alot of personal sutff. i suddenly felt i had to pour out, and that i could trust her. yes, im happy to sit beside vel, under the umbrella and chit chatting. hee! but i hope she wont betray me like last year. yup.. i hope that winston will really love and treat her well, though im not really convinced if he's good influence.
i dont know why, i just feel like doing whatever i can for the softballers. maybe my interest is coming back, maybe the feeling is returning.. but im just trying my very best. i hope i can keep going and not die down...
God please give me the strength! i dont know why i feel like fainting after just a while under the sun, i really cannot be so weak... expectations of me are very high, how can i play softball like that. oh yeah, he asked me to take care, but i injured my neck and hand, vel's pitch bounced and hit PAHHH! so painful! then that rough person's tag went TAH! TAH !TAH! hey, you are so rough..
hmm the giraffe is on sale again, i dont know if i should buy. say lee said that fate made the giraffe selling again, and now im still hesitating to buy, maybe im waiting for something which i dont know... hmm let fate be..
wahhh! today's sun is damndamndamn hot and im under the brella but still burnt! why?? sunday's the last american sch training! yay!
hope tomorrow say lee can go out tomorrow so i can settle the things i wanna settle fast. be happy everyone! i hope things can be good... and be like the past.
but i know its naive thinking.
5:50 PM
i dream of you.
♥